the accidental demise of friendship

in an attempt to lose weight, i joined P Fitness near my new office, and realised I sooo need a pair of new sneakers. 2-3 (?) years ago, a friend brought me to Qway and lured me into the occult of Asics track shoes. It's my first and only pair of asics so far, but defininitely my favorite brand of sports shoes, and I loved the shop assistant. so this many years later, I wanted to find her namecard cos I cant remember which shop it was, among its one hundred thousand competitors in the same building...

to my horror, i couldnt find my little blackbook (well, it's a namecard folio) with the namecards of my fav shops, hairstylist, beauticians, clinics etc. I know I havent been using it much, but i know it's always lying within my sight on my always messy desk. the contents in the dump of my desk will change, but the namecard holder has become a PR there for years! but when i wanted to find it ytd morning... it was gonee!!!!! *PANIC!!**

I ran to my mum and asked frantically if she'd seen it... she said my maid took it out of my dustbin not too long ago. "DUSTBIN!!??" I exclaimed. She said calmly "ya, she thought it might b something useful so decided to pick it out from the garbage."

THANK GOD SHE DID!! here's how it happened. My dustbin is very conveniently positioned under the edge of my desk, so my handy booklet must have accidentally dropped into the bin without me realising, while i pushed the rest of my mess around on the table. It was literally squeezed out of my desk... into the trash.

and to my amusement i thought, that's exactly what happened to some of my most memorable friendship - unwittingly sacrificed to give more space to the new things (and friends) that was happening in my life.

and just half an hour ago, while clearing my drawer of precious stuff, i found 2 chinese new year cards from a friend who passed away almost 2 years ago - he had always been faithful to send me a CNY card (albeit obiang one) and i have never ever returned the favor... and now he is no more.

sigh, cest la vie